I’ve been wanting to write a post like this for a long time. It’s not my typical kind of post, but as I minister to more and more loss moms, it’s evident that this topic is something that needs to be addressed. So, here we go! So often we do a really good job helping someone when their loved one …
Surviving Survivor’s Guilt
My second daughter will be 14 months old tomorrow. She is crawling like a champ, pulling up constantly, standing up in the middle of the room, and taking a few steps on her own. She talks like crazy, and she understands way more than she should for her age. When tested recently, her language, fine motor skills, and cognitive level …
The Longest Month
One year ago today, I was 40 weeks pregnant with our second daughter! She wasn’t quite ready to come out yet so she stayed in for a few more days until the 15th. That little stinker! If I’m being honest, this past month leading up to my second daughter’s first birthday has been a mix of emotions. I know every …
Death is Defeated
I’m gonna sing, in the middle of the stormLouder and louder, you’re gonna hear my praises roarUp from the ashes, hope will ariseDeath is defeated, the King is alive!” “Raise a Hallelujah” by Bethel Music Anyone heard this song at church or on the radio recently? (If not, click on the link-it’s worth an extra 5 minutes of your time, …
The Missing Name
I recently signed a card for my mom and stepdad to celebrate their anniversary. I wrote them a little message and then proceeded to sign our family’s names: “Mace, Jennifer, Bernard…(long pause)…and Haven…(another long pause).” I then closed the card, stuck it in the envelope, and sealed it. My heart remained heavy and lingered for a moment in the thick …
What will it be like?
I sat on my bed one morning recently thinking about Heaven and what it will be like to see my daughter Hannah Grace again. Since her death just over a year ago, I’ve thought about what it was like to hold her and see her face to face before she passed, but I hadn’t spent a lot of time really …
Taking Refuge
How precious is your steadfast love, O God! The children of mankind take refuge in the shadow of your wings. Psalm 36:7 This verse is printed on our daughter Hannah’s memorial stone at her grave. One of the reasons we picked this verse was because during my pregnancy with Hannah, this verse or another verse mentioning the refuge of God’s …
When Grief Cuts Deep
A few weeks ago, I was grocery shopping and spotted Peeps-scented hand soap. I immediately welled up with tears right there in the middle of the aisle. The realization that Easter season was starting hit me fast and hard. Our daughter, Hannah Grace, was born and passed away just a week before Easter last year. The fact that the Easter …
Comfort during Loss
I have heard a preacher say that we are not all promised to have success in this life, but we will all most certainly experience suffering. Suffering is the common denominator across the human experience, regardless of your age, ethnicity, country where you live, social status, or any other parameter. We all experience suffering throughout our lives. And yet at …
Thoughts on Our First Christmas without Our Daughter
Within seconds of waking up on Christmas morning, one of my very first thoughts was, “Merry Christmas, Hannah.” (Hannah is our daughter who passed away in April 2017. You can read more about her here.) It’s not that I thought she could hear me in that moment. But still, it felt right and good to wish her a Merry Christmas. …