When was the last time you had your plans all laid out perfectly…and then all your plans didn’t work out the way that you wanted them to? This has happened to me more times than I can count. Just recently, I found myself telling some friends that while there is a large gap in age between our two living children …
How to Survive When You are in a Spiritual Desert
In July, we had multiple weeks when we had no rain. It was in the upper 90’s and even 100 degrees a few days with 1000% humidity but not an inch of rain. None. It was so hot and so dry. Our grass started to die, but oddly enough, the weeds began to flourish. As I watched a handful of …
Surviving Survivor’s Guilt
My second daughter will be 14 months old tomorrow. She is crawling like a champ, pulling up constantly, standing up in the middle of the room, and taking a few steps on her own. She talks like crazy, and she understands way more than she should for her age. When tested recently, her language, fine motor skills, and cognitive level …
“Please just show me the next step, Lord!”
I must have prayed this prayer dozens of times during our second year of infertility. I don’t think I had ever begged God for anything up until this point, but I can remember day after day after day begging God to reveal His plan to me. It wasn’t just the unknowns that came with infertility. I was also in my …
Hello, August.
Hello, August. It’s been a while. Well, 11 months to be exact. You look different now than you used to. I once was filled with deep sadness as you approached knowing that another year of infertility had come and gone. You reminded me of my barrenness, my body’s brokenness, the deep unfulfilled longing in my heart. But this year is different. …