This post is probably not going where you think it is. It has nothing to do with the difficulty of putting our 6 year down for bed (though sometimes that can be challenging). And it has nothing to do with having a hungry baby at the end of the day who is fussy and needs to nurse but I have …
The Lord Will Establish Your Steps
Proverbs 16.9 says, “The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.” I recently re-read a post I wrote one year ago entitled A Blank Slate. In this post I reflect on the fact that looking into 2018 I had no expectations of what the year would hold. I had hopes, dreams, and loose plans that …
I’m Not There Yet
It’s been 5 months since I’ve sat down to write. So much has happened since July. I could write for days on end about all of the experiences we’ve walked through and all of the ways my faith has grown and is still growing. In upcoming posts I will write more about the journey we have been on, but for …
Darkness
School shootings. Syrian refugee crisis. Domestic violence. Innocent people getting killed in American streets. Bullying. The list goes on and on. So much darkness. It seems like every single day we’re hearing stories of people (adults and children) suffering, hurting, and dying. How do we make sense of it all? Can we make sense of it all? Our hearts break …
“Please just show me the next step, Lord!”
I must have prayed this prayer dozens of times during our second year of infertility. I don’t think I had ever begged God for anything up until this point, but I can remember day after day after day begging God to reveal His plan to me. It wasn’t just the unknowns that came with infertility. I was also in my …
I Will Not Be Moved
My son and I were listening to a CD the other day that had kid-versions of various songs that most of us have heard since we were little. One song that played has been in my head ever since. The song is, “I Shall Not Be Moved.” You may be familiar with one of its many versions sung by various …
Pulling Up the Weeds of Your Heart
Last Tuesday, my husband and I decided to do some yard work. Our front and back yards were a mess from the winter, and the warmer spring air was making weeds sprout up everywhere. He took the front yard, and I decided to take the backyard and get to work pulling up all the weeds. I thought it would take …
Our Camellia tree
When we moved into our home at the beginning of the summer 6 years ago the builder had planted a pretty flower bed in our front yard. At the very front of our flower bed, in a huge planter pot, was a small tree. There wasn’t anything particularly special about the tree. It had lots of small green leaves, skinny …
Search My Heart, O Lord
The other day a thought briefly passed through my mind. As soon as it did, I despised it, and I felt guilty that I had even thought it. I couldn’t believe I had thought such a thing. I prayed and prayed and prayed and asked God to forgive me. I told Him that I really didn’t mean what I had …
Be Still
While driving one afternoon, the words, “Be still” came to my mind. I took a deep breath and allowed those comforting words to sink deep into my soul. I had been going from one place to the next, and my mind had been preoccupied with a myriad of thoughts. I tried desperately to clear out some thoughts with each exhale. …